January 2009
so much for my "surprise"?
oh well. at least now i don’t have to get my hopes up for nothing.
December 2008
I’m just so fucking glad he fucking gets it. And that he doesn’t pretend to get what he doesn’t get. And that he’ll sit there and listen to me cry over how I went to Togo’s twice today and how the first time I told Mikey how much that one lady scared me, and how he told me not to judge people, and I said I didn’t give a fuck and that she was scary, and then...
When everything fucking sucks
he is the only person who doesn’t.
Listen
You have no idea
how fucking glad I am to be home
me: ill make him fall in love with me
patrick: haha
patrick: the word love has no meaning to him
me: shit this kid is sounding better and better
The future is looking bright.
Picking up my loves today from the train station at about 4:30. So I got them for the next couple days. Hittin up SLO tomorrow. OHAI I should check and see if that Lorin dude is playing a show there, seems like he always is. Anyway so the next two days should be pretty fun. Then it’s new years, and by the looks of it, that should be pretty bitchin. Fux ya.
hey thanks kid, i'll check that out
IohSANE: ive been listening to Live 105.3
IohSANE: and they got some legit music
get pisst, destroi!!!!!
of all the people i hate, i think that boy takes the cake
it’s kind of a shame
Fuq People
cityofcaterpillar:
Hey idiots, Common sense here. If you don’t like someone/act like a complete fucking elitist but “get on their jock” don’t try to stand up for yourself. You obviously don’t have half a fucking brain to find your shit to define yourself, so don’t steal my friends style. Save me from this newfound ordinary, where it’s cool to be fucking “artistic”. Art is the biggest fucking...
I want a boy
who doesn’t act all hard when he’s with his friends
who doesn’t make me wait around until things are convenient for him
who doesn’t pretend to love me when he feels like it
who doesn’t use me
who actually thinks highly of me
and who doesn’t lie to me
That one kid
is talking to me again. eh…..for some reason I feel guilty…which is kind of ruining the excitement of it all.
ex boyfriends how great
elite8993: u know how u said u hated twilight
whitesupernova: mhmm
elite8993: im on the last book
elite8993: lol!
whitesupernova: ........................................................
whitesupernova: my respect for adolf hitler > my respect for you
whitesupernova: at this point
I'm at my uncle's house.
Which is next door to my “vacation house”. He’s not even here, he left for hawaii this morining. I’m just here because here theres wi-fi and at my place there theres dial up. So I can finally update my tumblr. Now I realize theres not much to say.
Santa was pretty good to me. I got that bag I wanted and some boots that arent all that bad. Hella shirts and sweaters...
how come so many of my aim conversations end in “g2g halo”
shows the kinds of people i choose to surround myself with.
whitesupernova: a heart loves
whitesupernova: does it not
jerrypuntocom: no
jerrypuntocom: a heart beats
jerrypuntocom: YOUR heart loves
I’m lying on the ground of this stupid living room floor watching Law and Order by the fake xmas tree. My feet are like directly in the ashes of the fireplace and it feels oddly good.
Diet coke and a bowl of crutons. I cant tell if this is the shit or if my life REALLY sucks right now. I wish I had moar presents to wrap. This law and order episode sucks.
I wish I could like normal...
I wish I was looking more forward to xmas.
I hate xmas music and I hate the way it feels once it hits noon on xmas day.
I can name two good things about christmas:
Christmas in the Park
and
Wrapping presents. holy shit, how i love wrapping presents
I hate buying them though.
I wonder
if my current state of confusion has to do with the fact that a can of coke has NEVER tasted this good.
fuck this is gonna be good
thinkpink2137: well lets take the train
thinkpink2137: more adventure
mypointeofview13: and actually were gonan take a bus cuz its cheaper and faster
mypointeofview13: and we'll take pics of the weird ppl on the bus JUST FOR CELINE
FUX YUZ
ALEX AND SARAH ARE COMING TO SAVE ME AT MY “VACATION HOUSE”
public transportation saves my life
What a bitch.
I feel so stupid.
Oh well.
Donewiththat I guess.
I have to do this.
Partly to prove to you that I’m not a pussy.
And partly because,
well partly because of everything else.
“How come you can’t look at me without smiling?”
My night
was probably up there with the top 5 best nights of my life.
<33333333333333
i have a really bad feeling
something bad is going to happen tonight
fuck
First dai of break
I’m so excited for tonight. These next two hours might kill me.
All ive done since I got home is sleep, wake up, roll around in bed, wander the house, repeat.
All week I’ve been waiting for fridayfridayfriday. Now all I can think is fiveoclockfiveoclockfiveoclock.
I wish
stevewilkos:
I knew how to be an actual human being.
I think this kid is my idol.
when somebody dies
don’t keep posting myspace bulletins about it. that just…doesn’t work
yu make my <3 happi
hai. worst night of my life.
I just snuck the home phone to call you. I knew your phone would be off but I called you anyway. I got the point that I should leave you alone, but we both know that I’m not that strong. But I know, I KNOW you’ll check this.
I’m sorry I overreact.
I’m sorry I’m a shit friend.
I’m sorry I blame everything on you.
I can’t breathe.
The truth is...
Stay around Running out Time servant Trip...
No you know what
now i want to read you this now more than ever.
Wow annoying amount of posts in one hour.
Donewiththis.
I'm tired
of fighting with you.
Every fucking day.
And especially now, I think
maybe we’re just not supposed to be whatever the fuck we are.
you can
shove this up your ass. I always knew you were an asshole and I could deal with that. But I never got that you have no respect for me whatsoever. Fuck you I don’t need you.
You say you love me. You cant love somebody you admittedly don’t respect.
Go die.
I was gonna read you my word document you inquired about on Friday. Forget it now.
Forget this.
I hate you.
I've figured it out.
It’s not my parents I hate.
It’s just my dad.
I don’t know what makes him think he can talk to me, or my ballr little brother like that.
What’s he trying to prove? He’s really starting to piss me off.
Listen
Fuck
I just puked up everything I wish I could say to you into this post, and then edited all of it out.
I saved it in a word document in case I ever decide to tell you.
I love you.
For some reason, everything you say tonight gives me that feeling I got when we first talked 11 1/2 months ago.